If the decisions you make don't define you, what price would you pay to change them? "Close your eyes. This is the darkness I see, I feel, I live because of my choices. I spent my life running. Running from my past. A past that changed my life, robbed me of my childhood, and bound me for a life of silence. Silence protected me from further hurt. When I couldn't control my life, I found reprieve in my silence. Dark, cold silence. I'm trapped, trying to find my way out, trying to make a stand, trying to finally live; but is it too late?" Lacey Edwards fought emotional turmoil most of her life. She made choices that unknowingly put her through more painstaking heartache. She found bits and pieces of happiness in all the wrong areas except for one. This one gave her hope for a fresh new life full of promises. Could she hold onto it, or would it slip through her fingertips?
Mature content. Not appropriate for audiences 17 years and under. This novel contains explicit language, sexual situations, abuse and social issues that some might find offensive.
Review—Destructive Choices by LU Ann
“No, stop Mom, Lacey’s coming back right now. I can feel it, and I know she can hear me. It wasn’t until I asked her to squeeze my hand that her eyes started moving. It’s not involuntary. I just know it. I know she hears me, Mom! She’s coming back to us, and I refuse to listen to anyone who tells me otherwise.”
Lacey spends five weeks under the heavy cloud of darkness as her body heals from the injuries. Five weeks in a medically induced coma. Five weeks of listening to the people around her without being able to answer. Five weeks of a lie that is Caine Rogers. Five weeks without her baby, Evan. Five weeks wondering why she can’t respond, and why no one knows the truth about what really happened that night. Caine is all about playing the game of happy couple; that he and Lacey are working on their differences and plan to be family again. What he doesn’t know is that Lacey remembers. She remembers everything and if it weren’t for the fear of what would happen to Evan, she would be screaming to the heavens and anyone else who would listen. But she’s silent. Silent out of fear, knowledge or strength, I don’t know.
“I cannot believe how much of my heart I gave to this manipulative man. I have nothing left to give him, he has stomped on everything I’ve ever given. The fabrications, vicious words, and violations to my body and mind that he inflicted caused me to leave once. I can and will do it again. His lies and cheating ways continue. I’m not going to stick around to see if he’ll ever change. Who am I to think I can change someone? I deserve more, and so does Evan.”
And that “more” just so happens to walk back into her life…thanks to her unforgettable hair. Devon Holmes is a face from her past, about a year ago they met, connected instantly and yet, she stood him up when he tried to pursue her. Lacey is through running. She is young, but the tragedies in her life have forced her to grow up before her time. The greatest gift was given to her in the midst of the hardest time of her life, Evan. That baby boy means the absolute world to her and she would rather die than let any harm come to him from his father or anyone else. Devon gets that and quickly (almost too quickly to be believable) becomes the one person Lacey clings to in order to protect her, love her, and take care of her and Evan. Thankfully he wants the same. Devon has felt a connection to Lacey from the very beginning…now he finally has the opportunity to really be a part of her life. He is determined to prove that they are meant to be together.
“He’s working his way into my heart and I’m a little nervous about it.”
“My heart swells with joy and passion thinking about my future and no, no, no. Not going there. I can’t think about things like that right now. Life is me and Evan. That is all I need. I am all he needs. Getting better is my focus so I can care for him morning, noon and night.”
“I’m concerned you think I’m only stopping by to visit you because I’m doing rounds here. I don’t want to stop seeing you because you are discharged. I want to keep seeing you but I’m worried you aren’t ready for that and it kills me because I really like you…I don’t know how to tell you this but I can’t be friends with you…that’s not what I meant. Let me rephrase…I don’t want to be friends with you…because I want more.”
And so the next whirlwind love affair begins. Lacey has to find a way to disentangle herself from Caine while forging a new and pure love with Devon. Talk about whiplash…
That isn’t the whole story though. Lacey gets her happiness but it comes at a price. A price so high, she may not be able to pay it. Finding love once (even if it’s toxic) is a gift. Finding it twice is a miracle. This girl just may be out of those…and her family as well.
Just when you think things are finally looking up for Lacey, her world once again plummets into the depths of hell. Her family is ripped apart in more ways than one and she struggles to just get herself out of bed every day. When her body finally gives out, Caine takes full advantage and starts a war he may not be fully ready to fight.
With the help of Devon and Becca, Lacey sets out to finally end things with Caine once and for all…but this poor girl’s heart gets in the way and makes her do some stupid things. Love, loss, pain, and turmoil are the perfect words to describe what she goes through as the story progresses. But the one thing that stands out the most is her strength. Lacey is strong. She will do whatever it takes to make her family whole again…
So, what can I say? I read the first book and it was one that I struggled to get through, mainly because I didn’t feel I could relate to Lacey at all…but this book, she really proved to be more than just a stupid teenage girl. The struggles she faces are very real and honestly no one person should ever have to endure what Lacey has gone through. I know, you are probably like “WTF?” That’s kind of how I felt too. At one point, I almost put the book down because I just couldn’t read any more pain…and it’s so detailed. Good grief. But then, at about 70% things started coming together and I actually saw the personal connection that I look for in a book. I cried.
There you have it. This review only skirts on the issues this book touches and I strongly suggest you read the warning label because there is some seriously sensitive material…but it’s worth the read. LU Ann has taken a personal experience and made it a legacy. She may not look at it that way, but it spoke to me…and her Author Note at the end…LU, June 3rd is a day to remember for both of us. I just wish yours was a celebration like mine is. That is the day my son was born. You lost an angel and I gained one here on Earth. Thank you for this. All of it.
**4 Sometimes You Can’t Fix Everything Stars**
Author L.U. Ann moved to Colorado from the Eastern Shore of Maryland with her husband and two children. Life in Colorado is so much different. In Maryland, you would find her in the garden tending to her vegetables and flowers, sea glass and shark tooth hunting once a week, and enjoying the kids swimming in the backyard. Her life took a drastic change when her family moved to their own “Little House on the Prairie" at an elevation of over 6,000 feet above sea level, and a semi-arid climate that makes it hard to grow anything. While barely anything can grow where she resides now, the wildlife makes up for it. Mountain Lions, and coyotes, and rattlesnakes, oh my! She tries to spend a little time each day writing, but domestic chores around the house usually take precedence. She would much rather hide them from her husband. She tends to her loving four-legged children who at times become much too demanding when she locks herself in the office. This often results in MORE domestic work, and she finds herself cleaning up after their deviant behavior. At night, you’ll find her begging the kids to go to bed so that she can catch up on the latest book before her sister can. Yes, she is an avid reader who escapes her chaotic but wonderful home to the feisty depths of romance land in search of her newest book boyfriend. Shh, don’t tell her husband. She is an artist by the grace of God. She worked as a set designer for six years, helping establish a local children's theatre where she was the scenery artist, set, and prop designer. Before that, you would find her covered in paint, so engrossed in painting a mural that time didn't exist. Graphic design is her guilty pleasure. Destructive Choices is the second book in The Destructive Series. Each book will hit its reader with lots of angst hoping for a happily ever after.
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