Cutting breaks through my numbness, but only opens more wounds.
Depression, self-harm, bullying....that's my reality.
Sex and guys....that's my escape.
The space between the truth and lies is blurred leaving me torn, lost and confused. And while the monsters that live in my head try to beat me-- the two men that I love try to save me.
This is my story of friendship, heartache, and the grueling journey that is mental-illness.
Sometimes you have to get lost in order to be found…
This review is one of the hardest I have ever had to write, why? This book touched me on so many levels and I am still processing everything I have read (In the best way possible) Book hangover does not come close to covering what I am experiencing. I have been with Kathryn though this journey, I got the first chapter of the book last January and I have never wanted a book in my hands more.
"You deserve to have a man who falls in love with your mind, wants to undress your very conscience and make love to your every single thought. You deserve a man who wants to see you slowly let down every wall you’ve ever built up. You deserve a man that will work hard for you until you let him inside your heart.”
Jessica, she captured my heart. Oh how I just wanted to jump into the book and give her a hug show her she is loved and tell her everything will be okay. My heart broke for her, bullying is something that should never be overlooked and this book showed how truly horrible it can be.
“Sometimes I wish depression was a living, breathing, tangible being, so I could wrap my hands around her throat and squeeze ‘til all that’s left in her pools of darkness is nothingness, rendering her powerless to ever hurt me again.”
I will admit Jess doesn't do herself many favours with her promiscuous nature but that is no excuse for what she is put through, she just wants a connection - any connection even if it is for the wrong reasons is what she craves. She wants to feel, and one way she helps her self feel is through cutting - it's something she can control.
Things only begin to look up when Jace comes into her life - Oh Jace, can I please have my own? I promise to look after him. Now where was I? Oh yes Jase is the Jock, you know what one? He dates the head cheerleader, his family is rich and his life from the outside looks perfect.
Jessica and Jace begin to form a connection and I could not put the book down, their connection is beyond words (literally I sat here for about half an hour thinking what would sum it up). This book shows a journey of love, finding yourself and happiness.
“Listen to me right now. You deserve to have a man who falls in love with your mind, wants to undress your very conscience, and make love to your every single thought. You deserve a man who wants to see you slowly let down every wall you’ve ever built up.. You deserve a man that will work hard for you until you let him inside your heart.”
If you are anything like me you will need a box of tissues, some chocolate and a large stuffed animal to hug - I ugly cried, snot and all during this book and I do not regret a thing because at the ends of this book I felt amazing, this was not your average book it was so much more and it came with a message that had meaning.
All of the issues touched upon in this book are going on all around the world right now and we are too oblivious to realize, and I hope like me this book will make you think and make you take notice. Personally I have suffered through bullying and depression so I feel wonderful know Kathryn is using her talent as a writer to bring attention to these issues.
Kathryn my dear friend, you are a wonderful women and I am honoured to know you, thank you for giving me, us, everyone this amazing book it is destined for success and is not something I will ever forget. You have such talent with words and a strength I admire.
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