Sunday, September 20, 2015

Blog Tour -- Complicate Me

BLOG TOUR
Title: Complicate Me (The Good Ol’ Boys)
Author: Best Selling Author M. ROBINSON
Genre: Contemporary Romance
Release Day: September 14th
Cover Design: Rebecca Marie at The Final Wrap




It was complicated, it was also just the beginning.
A decision.
A simple choice.
There is always that one moment in life where things could have been different. That one moment where you could have chosen a path that would lead you down a certain road.
A different life.
It was easier to pretend that we were still best friends, and that she was my girl and I was her boy.
Pretending was better than knowing the truth...
I. Ruined. Us.
I had her.
I lost her.
I love her.
All I did was complicate us. 




REVIEW



“I thought it was normal…The feelings I had for her. I thought all the boys felt that way, assuming she had a gravitational pull on all of us. I learned later that I was wrong. I couldn’t have been more wrong had I tried.” –Lucas

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“Even though what I felt for him, what we felt for each other…it wouldn’t be defined till a few years later, this is where it all started. Our first kiss was our beginning and in some ways our end. This is where our complicated love began.” –Alex 

This is one of those books where when you finish, you can’t seem to pick up another book afterward. This poses a problem for someone like me who binge reads to meet deadlines for my blog…but I will say, after reading Complicate Me, I was (am) happy to say it is 100% worth it.

The hangover.

Not missing later posts. (I get in trouble for that).

Let me tell you about this epic-ness. So it begins…

Being the only girl in a group of boys has its perks, and its downfalls…perks first:

One, protection. Definitely that, it’s like having a bunch of big brothers all the time to watch out for you and take care of you. Being that Alex was an only child, this worked absolutely in her favor.

Second, the ability to learn and do things typical girls don’t do…even if she was called a girl and blamed for being a girl as the reason she couldn’t keep up sometimes.

Third, hello? Boys. 

Now, obviously that means nothing. Boys. Because they are like her brothers. Except Lucas. Lucas is something special…which leads me to the downfalls:

One, falling in love with one of the boys. 

Two, having to hide said feelings because honestly, it’s frowned upon by all the other boys…who see Alex as nothing more than a kid sister.

Three, being subjected to years of heartache because her soul mate cannot be with her (see number two).

Four, forcing Alex to move on…and watching Lucas move on too…the loss of not only a best friend, but maybe the other half of your heart.

I have just two words. Gut wrenching! It was the most beautiful and tragic love story…one that started at birth and never went away. One that not only tugged at my heartstrings, but made my eyes leak uncontrollably on more than one occasion. One that I went to bed thinking about and woke from dreaming about. It’s an epic love that only happens once in a lifetime, and only to some people.

I wanted to smack Alex and Lucas. I wanted to hug them, and push them together when the world was pulling them apart…I wanted everything, and I got it. I got everything I could want from this book. So, thank you. Thank you for writing something that spoke volumes louder than some words can only whisper. Thank you for giving hope that two halves in this world can make one whole (and it’s not considered unhealthy). Thank you for Alex and Lucas. For their beginning, their journey, their ending. 

I loved every letter, every word, every page, every chapter…till the very end, and I cannot wait for what happens next. 

“We laid our love out for each other years ago…I fought a battle I knew I could never win. The emotional turmoil ate away at me the closer we got to saying goodbye. That’s what happened when two halves of a heart come together and become one. We would always be linked. We were destines to be soul mates. Star-crossed lovers.” 

It’s all very complicated…and absolutely perfect.


**5 Complete Me, Stars**








My brown eyed girl sat on our blankets with her arms wrapped around her knees, hiding her face. The tiny frame that I adored so much shook uncontrollably, only heightening the deepest sobbing that escalated with each passing second. It was such an intimate moment, not to be shared with anyone, especially me. Alex didn’t cry. I watched her bawl for the first time in my life. I had never seen anyone cry like that before, and it shook me to my core, slicing me whole, and making me feel like I was dying. Carving a memory that I would take to my grave. 
There was no going back…
No erasing.
No do overs.
No deleting.
What I witnessed tonight would be my purgatory; I would now close my eyes and forever see her falling apart in front of me. Shattering before my very own eyes and I found it hard to breathe.
Hard to move.
My feet were glued to the goddamn floor as she continued to weep, sob, bawl, violently sucking in air that wasn’t available. I accepted it all; each tear that fell from her face becoming pieces of me. Circulating through my veins and blood, it flowed endlessly, a river of her sadness and sorrow and of my broken promises. No beginning or ending to her cries, just an infinite current, flooding the hole where my heart should be. The shadow of her trembling petite body reflected off the walls, leaving a trail of regrets in its wake.
Mine.
Hers.
Ours.
Growing up in a small town you overheard a lot of things. People talking, stories told, town gossip. You listened a lot. You learned a lot. Tourists, townies, friends, and especially family all shared wisdom and advice that you think you will never need.
Bunch of bullshit.
They say you have that one moment in life where things could have been different, that one moment that changes the course of your life or the direction you could have taken. That one moment that could forever change you and everything you wanted to be true, everything you wanted to believe.
One simple decision could alter your entire future.
My entire world.
I would forever remember this moment for the rest of my life. This is the moment that changed everything. This is the moment where I took another direction, another road that led me to my own demise.
My own regrets. 
I should have walked in there. I should have apologized. I should have begged for her forgiveness. I should have promised that I would never hurt her again. I should have done whatever it took to make her look at me the way she had our entire lives.
But I didn’t…
I did none of those things…
Not one.
Nothing was said between us.
No words.
No actions.
I was a coward and couldn’t do it. I couldn’t see her like that. I couldn’t look into her eyes and know that I had hurt her. That I had disappointed her. That I ruined her love and lost her respect for me.
The boy who promised he would never hurt her.
The boy who swore he would always protect her.
The boy who vowed he would never let anything happen to her.
That same boy was me.
I was the reason she was bawling.
I was the reason she was hurt.
I was the reason she was broken.
She knew the truth. It had finally caught up to me… I shattered her illusion that I was hers. I ruined the one good thing I had in my life. The girl that owned my heart was bleeding out for me in a way that I had never seen before. The house was no longer our safe place.
I had brought my hurricane with me…
I couldn’t risk the possibility of losing her permanently if I walked in there and admitted my truths. She wouldn’t love me anymore, she wouldn’t look at me the same anymore, and she wouldn’t be mine anymore.
My brown eyed girl.
The girl that I had loved all of my life.
The same girl that I would love for the rest of my life.
Alexandra.
I gave her the only comfort I could in her moment of despair. I turned around and left. I walked down the stairs and got into my truck. I turned the engine on and drove my sorry ass home. I took a shower and never once looked at myself in the mirror. I pretended that nothing changed. That I didn’t cause her pain, and that she didn’t know the truth. That I didn’t see her sobbing and that she wasn’t even bawling to begin with. That we were still just best friends, and that she was my girl and I was her boy.
My Half-Pint and her Bo.
It was better than knowing…
I ruined us.





Best Selling Author M. Robinson loves to read. She favors anything that has angst, romance, triangles, cheating, love, and of course sex! She has been reading since the Babysitters Club and R.L. Stein.

She was born in New Jersey but was raised in Tampa Fl. She is currently pursuing her Ph.D in psychology, with two years left.

She is married to an amazing man who she loves to pieces. They have two German Shepherd mixes and a Tabby cat.  







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