"What if it was here? What if it was her who couldn't be what you needed? Who couldn't handle what you are. Who ruined the relationship." I went still. There was no beast. No ache in my chest. Just the feel of Jessica in my hands as her words echoed in my mind. "Because since she left, you've changed. I've never seen a driven man so lost. But I've also never seen you so human. So, what if it was her?"
I didn't think the series could get any better but I am thrilled to say I was wrong. Nightshade was everything I hoped it would be and so much more. I fell in love with Kieran as he struggled against his need for bloodlust, obligation, and disappointing the woman he was supposed to love. My feelings solidified as I watched this little bit of chaos change him in a way no one has ever been able to do. And I was done for once I saw every truth trapped in his darkness. It was pure, dark magic.
"She was everything I hated. And I'd never wanted anyone the way I wanted her. I wanted the dark that matched mine. I wanted the chaos. I wanted the way she calmed under my touch. I wanted all of it."
The constant feeling of being watched, being seen only when she wanted people to...how each knew the other was there even before they actually saw them. And the ultimate loss each of them suffered as the story came to a close. But nothing could compare to all they gained...
"And I stopped, unable to do anything but drink her in as she lay there, breathless, with a satisfied smile. She was beauty and strength. She was seduction and sin. She was destruction and chaos. She was peace. And she was my home. The girl was poison. My personal nightshade. And I savored every bit that filled my veins. Mine, mine, mine."
McAdams never fails to make me feel...everything. All the feels. All the time. From beginning to end. A great story does that...a great writer does that. What we have here is both.
I know I did.
"Wait for her to stop laughing. That's when it's real."
**5 Birds of Prey, Stars**